The monster of trauma lives inside you and feeds on the painful memories you have accumulated over the years. This creature keeps feeding on your emotional, mental and physical energy. You start feeling terrified all the time. The intense trauma makes it difficult to focus on anything.
The monster living inside you keeps troubling you with its frequent piercing bites. It troubles your heart and makes it difficult to live peacefully. You are unable to think anything else away from your painful experiences of your past.
The troubling memories you experience frequently are nothing but all those events where you were rejected, brutalized, molested, beaten and abused. Your mind remembers all such humiliations and keeps them in your memory.
All those scenes keep coming up in your mind every now and then. You can see and feel all those events with so much clarity even after several years down the line. This poor mental state makes you vulnerable and you never feel well.
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